i wonder when it started. a week into this semester? earlier? probably much earlier, maybe even springtime, or the end of the spring semester. trying to maintain concentration on just about anything is a battle. not everything, of course--driving is fine, and video games is okay (rapid-eye movement helps?), but not much else. aside from the 'twilight' series this summer, i don't think i've finished a book in a year? maybe more? i'm sure there must have been one or two that i can't recall. but i used to be such a voracious reader.
the studying thing has been the worst of all, though. trying to do detailed research or assignments has hit a huge brick wall. and trying to do any work on this gizmo, the computer? if it's hooked up to the internet, as most i find are in some way, up goes the browser (and multiple tabs) and hop-hop-hop.
could it be the st. john's wort? i've been taking it for many months now, to even things out. maybe that's it. despair isn't such a deep pit (most of the time) but perhaps its place has been taken by haze and drifting.
can't be old age, yet. but i'll be amazed if i can actually pull a C out of one of my two classes. i think the other class will be fine, but the more 'academic' one? stare at page, try to figure out how to do it or find the data, and FAIL. blah.
on a lighter note, it's fantastic to have music in the car again. and the driver's seat of the new car is so comforting, so relaxing! now to finally make the call to the FD or someone and donate the poor old saab. and then take it off the insurance, lol
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